20 seconds of pleasure and potentially a whole lifetime of problems

[Balaallen123]

Originally Posted by BroRelax

Doxy PEP is 72 hrs. Suggest to do full course including jab since your window period probably over.

Still within the window. So long don't go over the 2:30pm this Monday. Will ask for the medication also. Thank you bro

[oxeso]

Too much details in ur posts.. u never know who's reading.

[Keepchiong]

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I feel like shit (potentially affecting my relationship)
I'm getting married early next year and I'm feeling very overwhelmed by what transpired yesterday. It was my first time in a long time going to JB. Didn't expect much as I only wanted a massage. Long story short, me and ML teased each other and I didn't think clearly at that point and I was horny that I asked if can do vaginal intercourse a bit and she at first hesitated cause of the noise then allowed me to. Just putting it in and trusting for about 10 seconds, I ejaculated into her (unprotected). Everything. After ejaculation and my dick being in there for another good 5-8 seconds. I suddenly realised I fucked up big big time.

After the massage, the masseuse didn't make a big fuss of it (she's Viet). Looks to be in her mid 30s or early 40s. Paid her and was about to leave when she suddenly took her phone out while on a video call with someone and I can see she's clearly pointing at my direction. i suspect taking a photo of me. Anyone encountered this situation before? What if she took a photo of me as proof and happens to be pregnant then tried to get some ah long to find me? Or threatend me to in sg to go back and find her to be responsible for the kid? And potentially my fiance finding one

So now I'm extremely paranoid. I've already gone to doctors this morning and prescribed PEP. Will do regular checkup as well for other std. In the meantime, I may have to come up with excuse for no sex till I'm cleared.

I feel like absolute shit. That 20 seconds of pleasure was not worth the after thought and now im just so defeated. My wallet is burned from the PEP. My relationship with fiance could also be potentially ruined if I come up with some STD. But I'm more concerned about the ML getting pregnant and finding me, leading to my fiance knowledge on the matter and everything we've planned for is now in shambles.

I feel super remorseful. I can't function normally. Everytime I see my fiancé planning out wedding, I feel like crying and hope I just die before that.

Can anyone advice? I'm taking measures right now to get myself medicated and tested for 1 month, 3 and 6. Anything I should be doing to stay calm and not worry?

Bro you'll be alright.

1) chances of male to female hiv is 1 in 2500, i.e. 0.04% chance(not encouraging anyone to go raw) and the most important thing is you went for pep in less than 72 hours. Which almost eliminates any chance of it happening to you, can consider it virtually impossible. Any other stds, they are very much curable, just inconveniences.

2) Great that youre abstaining sex with your fiance, respect there bro. But usually symptoms if any, should appear relatively soon, within 1 to 2 weeks. If your fiance starts to find it weird why you arent having sex with her, guess its very normal to sound off that you're just stressed out (which you are) and give you sometime to adjust. Also if sex does really happen, just rmb to wear condoms. Dont have to worry, if I recall one of only the few common ones that cannot be blocked with condoms is mollascum contagiosum and that isn't life threatening and can be freezed off in a matter of seconds. Its just pimple-like btw, so very easy to explain away, and it surfaces quite quickly, within a week.

3) like what a bro said, NEVER EVER confess to it, you would destroy her life, with likelyhood of sending her down an oblivion of depression, its not about you not owning up to your shit, its about her too. Somethings are better left unsaid, just do better next time.

4) Btw when you are stressed out, you'll start getting intrusive thoughts, shit randomly popping up in your mind anytime making you worry like fuck, and if it happens to you just keep this thought in mind "this too shall pass", take a deep breath and smile. Helped me out a lot with my panic attacks in the past (obviously cause I did the same stupid shit like you did) haha. You're not alone.

5) You're probably an overthinker like me, trying to consider all possibilities as to how they(in this case the ML) will try to track you down, how they try to steal your info when you're washing up. Or how they took a video or picture of your back to identify you. Or you might even think of how they might go to the hospital to take a sample of your semen from her vajayjay then turn up at your doorstep in sg to track you down, report you for rape or want you to take responsibility.

Bro, it aint happening, considering the logistical challenges and the immense effort, rarely anyone is desperate enough to do so. Normally for anyone to go to that level of extremes, its only when they harbor some serious hate against you, or they are working as a fbi or some shit.


Tldr; you're fine bro.

[Fed02]

Well... the chances of getting HIV is very low.

But hope this is a lesson learnt .... raw is war.
Just go for a handjob next time. Save all the anxiety trouble.

[plok]

I can totally understand your stress. Happened to be before also. Remember long ago there was a big hooha on a ML from SLG infecting customers with bbbj. Totally gave me sleepless nights sia. From then onwards only cap. Even bj also with cap else no. Coz I don’t wanna go thru that stress again.

[donut88]

Tell us which massage place yup went so that we can avoid it.

For her to find you is the least worry you shld have. it's close to 0% chance. And she must had done it with 101 men before you.

The main worry you should be thinking about is STD

[donut88]

Like what other bros said.

Never confess. Women never forgets. And yr life will be ruined forever. Just keep quiet act blur.

Be smarter next time ok. Go to such places, just do hj. even doing with condoms still got some std risks.

U can roam the whole body of ML but always remember to have hj until the end.

[Ecuader]

Originally Posted by xxxjap

I think u no need to worry abt them finding u... cos u paid for the service unless u didnt paid for the service.. they will come after u.. and tbh.. u really love ur wife to be? cos if u really lover her.. u wont be doing what ubhad done in the first place.. u only need to worry if u kenna AIDS..

Originally Posted by sennheiser

So there's little to no chance of her initiating intimacy before you get cleared right? Then take it easy. Go through the tests as the other bros here mentioned.

+26 points

[donelurking]

chill out if no symptoms after 2-4 weeks you are probably in the clear for any STDs

HIV female to male transmission chance is extremely low and you have taken prep

I'd be more worried about not being able to sexually satisfy your wife in the future, you gotta fix that 10s pump and cum

[Balaallen123]

Originally Posted by Keepchiong

Bro you'll be alright.

1) chances of male to female hiv is 1 in 2500, i.e. 0.04% chance(not encouraging anyone to go raw) and the most important thing is you went for pep in less than 72 hours. Which almost eliminates any chance of it happening to you, can consider it virtually impossible. Any other stds, they are very much curable, just inconveniences.

2) Great that youre abstaining sex with your fiance, respect there bro. But usually symptoms if any, should appear relatively soon, within 1 to 2 weeks. If your fiance starts to find it weird why you arent having sex with her, guess its very normal to sound off that you're just stressed out (which you are) and give you sometime to adjust. Also if sex does really happen, just rmb to wear condoms. Dont have to worry, if I recall one of only the few common ones that cannot be blocked with condoms is mollascum contagiosum and that isn't life threatening and can be freezed off in a matter of seconds. Its just pimple-like btw, so very easy to explain away, and it surfaces quite quickly, within a week.

3) like what a bro said, NEVER EVER confess to it, you would destroy her life, with likelyhood of sending her down an oblivion of depression, its not about you not owning up to your shit, its about her too. Somethings are better left unsaid, just do better next time.

4) Btw when you are stressed out, you'll start getting intrusive thoughts, shit randomly popping up in your mind anytime making you worry like fuck, and if it happens to you just keep this thought in mind "this too shall pass", take a deep breath and smile. Helped me out a lot with my panic attacks in the past (obviously cause I did the same stupid shit like you did) haha. You're not alone.

5) You're probably an overthinker like me, trying to consider all possibilities as to how they(in this case the ML) will try to track you down, how they try to steal your info when you're washing up. Or how they took a video or picture of your back to identify you. Or you might even think of how they might go to the hospital to take a sample of your semen from her vajayjay then turn up at your doorstep in sg to track you down, report you for rape or want you to take responsibility.

Bro, it aint happening, considering the logistical challenges and the immense effort, rarely anyone is desperate enough to do so. Normally for anyone to go to that level of extremes, its only when they harbor some serious hate against you, or they are working as a fbi or some shit.


Tldr; you're fine bro.

From the deepest part of my heart, I thank you whole heartedly for this post. I still like shit after meeting my fiancée for family dinner today and then talking about our wedding plans next year. I just felt my heart sank and I can't bare to look at her while the guilt is eating me. I'm just trying to survive and put on a poker face. My worst fear is getting STDs like herpes and the ML finding me pregnancy. I did a simulation and odds calculation with chatgpt and they say very low for that one instance. But then again, one instance is all it takes. I'm really praying hard I don't get anything and that within the next 2 weeks no symptoms or anything to suggest otherwise. Or else I'd be very paranoid.

But as you said bro, I might be just overthinking things but I also and weary and cautious of any symptoms going up.

Will update here after 1 week, 2 and 4 weeks.

And as always, I thank you a lot for taking your time out to type this. I'll read your message everyday and remind myself to take it slowly

[Sassaulo]

Why you using chatgp ?
This not math

[dumbpayingsimp]

Originally Posted by Balaallen123

From the deepest part of my heart, I thank you whole heartedly for this post. I still like shit after meeting my fiancée for family dinner today and then talking about our wedding plans next year. I just felt my heart sank and I can't bare to look at her while the guilt is eating me. I'm just trying to survive and put on a poker face. My worst fear is getting STDs like herpes and the ML finding me pregnancy. I did a simulation and odds calculation with chatgpt and they say very low for that one instance. But then again, one instance is all it takes. I'm really praying hard I don't get anything and that within the next 2 weeks no symptoms or anything to suggest otherwise. Or else I'd be very paranoid.

But as you said bro, I might be just overthinking things but I also and weary and cautious of any symptoms going up.

Will update here after 1 week, 2 and 4 weeks.

And as always, I thank you a lot for taking your time out to type this. I'll read your message everyday and remind myself to take it slowly

In my opinion this should be something you must bring to your grave and never share to anyone you know. If you tell your fiancée, it is making yourself to feel better, to tell the truth. But in reality, you are probably gonna ruin her life as can you imagine how she will react? The worst case scenario will be to break up, and she will probably be scarred for life after hearing what you did.
I am not trying to lecture you here, but to offer you an advice to think in another perspective. You should remember this mistake and treat her better for the rest of your life.

I read through the whole thread and you are definitely overthinking way too much. You need to calm down and reorganise yourself. Shit happens and now is time to clean up. Just ensure that you do a full STD check up after 28 days upon exposure (blood + urine) to ensure you are clean. Statistically speaking HIV transmission rate will be almost 0 as you are on PEP. Just monitor any discharge for Gonorrhoea and Chlamydia. If you need a discreet clinic, feel free to PM me too. Take care and try to maintain your sanity.